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“This Life of Mine”
All songs written and arranged by Jennifer Michelle S. Lane
c. jenlanemusic 2016

1. Waitin’ For You
When you’re searching for what you need to find
I’ll be waitin’ for you baby
When you’re lost inside your mind
I’ll be waitin’ for you baby
I’ll be waitin’ for you babe

When you’re beatin; yourself up and down
I’ll be prayin’ for you baby
When your heart is inside out
I’ll be prayin’ for you baby
I’ll be prayin’ for you babe

Even if you crumble
Every time you stumble
I’ll pick you up and pick you up
And I will try to make you whole again

When you break apart ,when you lose your cool
I’ll be stayin’ for you baby
When you ain’t thinkin’ and you act a fool
I’ll be stayin’ for you baby
I’ll be stayin for you babe

When you’re searching for what you need to find
I’ll be waitin’ for you baby
When you’re lost inside your mind, I’ll be waitin’ for you babe
When you’re searching for what you need to find
I’ll be waitin’ for you baby
When you’re lost inside your mind, I’ll be waitin’ for you babe
I’ll be waitin’ for you babe x 2

 

2. Moving on
Its been hard moving on
Got rid of some weight and now I’m feeling strong
I hope for you it wont take too long, to get over it
You said you didn’t wanna dig
Then you unloaded all your dirt on me
And you didn’t even stop to see, I was buried

Moving on, moving on, moving on will keep you strong

Imagine being in your head
Boxes piled high with old regrets
Tucked away behind some big secrets, that won’t keep quiet
So I’m flying with my happy thoughts
And unraveling my stomach knots
Giving thanks for all the good I’ve got, and getting over it

Moving on, moving on, moving on will keep you strong

Moving on, moving on, moving on will keep you strong
Moving on, moving on, moving on will keep you strong

It’s been hard moving on
Unloaded my luggage and now I’m feeling strong
I hope, you get over it


3. 1st day of spring (in saskatchewan)
It’s the first day of spring in Saskatchewan
Everybody’s snowed in, I’m gonna have me some fun
I got a fridge full of food and a bottle of wine
I got this old guitar I like to play all the time

I’m gonna make myself something spicy to eat
Pour a little drink and then get off of my feet
And plunk away at a tune cause honey it ain’t June                   
And we’re all snowed in on the 1st day of spring

Get out the records and the whiskey too
Have a celebration with no body but you
Because it wont be long until the storm is gone
And you’ll wish you would-a put down your shovel yesterday silly

No one here to judge me if it’s quarter to 4
There’s a mountain of snow living outside my door
And I aint getting dressed, cuz baby I’m impressed
That we’re all snowed in on the first day of spring

Get out the records and the whiskey too
Have a celebration with no body but you
Because it wont be long until the storm is gone
And you’ll wish you would-a put down your shovel yesterday silly

It’s the first day of spring in Saskatchewan
Everybody’s snowed in, I’m gonna have me some fun
I got a fridge full of food and a bottle of wine
I got this old guitar I like to play all the time

I’m gonna make myself something spicy to eat
Pour a little drink and then get off of my feet
And plunk away at a tune cause honey it ain’t June                   
And we’re all snowed in on the 1st day of spring
All snowed in on the 1st day of spring


4. Never try to love you
Standing outside the window out on this old balcony
Watching you think, watching you think
And I’m falling in love with a little part of you
That I once knew, that I once knew

I know I’ve got too much to say sometimes                 
And it don’t come out right, it don’t come out right
I’d say nothing but I promised I
I would never try, I would never try, to love you

The patterns all look the same on these hotel walls
Where did I fall where did I fall?
I get used to the view by the end of the day
Then I’m on my way, then I’m on my way

I know I’ve gotta get it off my mind
And it don’t come out right, it don’t come out right
I’d say nothing but I promised I, I would never try
I would never try, to love you

5. Thirteen

Won’t you let me walk you home from school?
Won’t you let me meet you at the pool?
Maybe Friday I can
Get tickets for the dance
And I’ll take you, ooh ooh

Won’t you tell your dad get off my back?
Tell him what we said ’bout Paint It Black
Rock and roll is here to stay
Come inside where it’s okay
And I’ll shake you, ooh ooh

Won’t you tell me what you’re thinking of?
Would you be an outlaw for my love?
If it’s so, well let me know
If it’s no, well I can go
I won’t make you, ooh ooh


6. Shoe

I’ve been shackled down in the shoe of my mind
Growing out my hair from a castle in the sky
And I’ve been waiting for your call, all night
I be shackled down you out on the prairie town hard-a-workin’

Wondering what to do, with myself I’m
Wondering what to do, with myself I’m
Wondering what to do, without you

So I packed your lunch and your next days breakfast
And kissed you like I wouldn’t see you until Christmas
Cuz you’ll be on the road, for days
Eatin’ all alone, I be waitin by the phone, you’re hard-a-workin

I’ve been shackled down in the shoe of my mind
Growing out my hair from a castle in the sky
And I’ve been waiting for your call, all night
I be shackled down you out on the prairie town hard-a-workin’ x 2

Wondering what to do, with myself I’m
Wondering what to do, with myself I’m
Wondering what to do, without you
Wondering what to do, with myself I’m
Wondering what to do, with myself I’m
Wondering what to do, without you
without you x 2

7. My Man
I did my best, I bent my breath
I did what you asked
And now I’m finding out
That I’m letting you down

How could you treat me this way I thought I was your lady

I never believed it could be this bad
I guess I still don’t, I guess I’m just mad
Cuz I cried myself to sleep, I cried myself sick
And now I’m as empty, as my silhouette

How could you treat me this way I thought I was your lady
How could you treat me so bad, I thought you were my man

How could you treat me this way I thought I was your lady
How could you treat me so bad, I thought you were my man

When I let go I thought we’d be free and gone
Now I’m looking up, to see you hanging on
Wont you come down, down
And be with me now, And be with me now

8. Hollow Heart
It’s snowing
I can’t see where I’m going
I’m wide-awake and I’ve been
Frozen

It’s coming down
I can’t seem to find my ground
When the tears start pouring down
I’ll be home bound

Oh, my hollow heart
Hollow heart, is aching full of emptiness

I hide the hurt
In my little universe
You know it always could be worse
I swallow my nerve

Oh, my hollow heart
Hollow heart, is aching full of emptiness

Aching, Aching

Oh, my hollow heart
Hollow heart,
is aching
Oh, my hollow heart
Hollow heart
Is Breaking

 

9. Happy
Oh God, Life gets harder
As we get older
When they say, “why do you bother?”
I say, “ It sure ain’t no bother, to me”

Cuz the cross on the church is lit up down the street
and the stars are all shining on me
well I had a good day, and I’m lucky to say
that I’m happy

Oh God, Life gets harder
As we get older
When they say, “why do you bother?”
I say, “ it sure ain’t no bother”
When they talk, “you’ll never make it”
Well I walk, I’ve already made it
When they fight, “why don’t you prove it?”
I fight back, I don’t need to prove a thing to you

Cuz the trash on the ground is lit up by streetlights
And the rain is all pouring on me
Well I had a bad day, but I’m lucky to say
That I’m happy, this way 2x

Cuz the cross on the church is lit up down the street
and the stars are all shining on me
well I had a good day, and I’m lucky to say
that I’m happy
I’m happy, I’m happy

10. Fools
You left me here crying, wondering
Pondering what could be so wrong
So I pointed out your flaws, cuz you point out mine
Say I drive you crazy, all the time

Fools, we are fools

I’m happy you’re here, I hope that you stay
But mostly I hope you find your way
The walls here are blind, The ice here is thin
These heavy hearts are caving in

Fools,                   we are fools

Oh oh, Oh oh x2

You left me here crying, wondering
Pondering what could be so wrong
So I pointed out your flaws, cuz you point out mine
Say I drive you crazy, all the time

Fools, we are fools
11. This life of mine
Today, I’m gonna be ok
I wont storm out on you and I wont rain down on me
I don’t feel mad, so I won’t cry, then I wont feel sad when I say goodbye

To this life, this little life of mine
This grand old life ,this life, of mine

I’m one of the lucky ones, I’m one of the fortunate ones
I’m one of the broken ones, but I’m one of the happy ones
And I’m one of those crazy ones, one of those ones, with guardian angels
One of the ones that’s loved by you
One of the ones that loves you in this life…

this little life of mine
This grand old life ,this life, of mine

I’m one of the lucky ones, I’m one of the fortunate ones
I’m one of the broken ones, but I’m one of the happy ones
And I’m one of those crazy ones, one of those ones, with guardian angels
One of the ones that’s loved by you
One of the ones that loves you in this life…

this little life of mine
This grand old life ,this life, of mine

 

 

 


 

Jen Lane FTN cover

“For The Night”
all songs written and arranged by Jennifer Michelle S. Lane

c. jenlanemusic 2010

1. lie to me

i’m looking out, the window cause, i’m waiting for, you to pull up
at our house, where we live, where we share, all our stuff
why do you, want me to, be so blue, baby blue
come over here and tell me something true

you can lie, lie, lie to me all that you want
you can look me in the eye
you can la de dai to me in the dark
but i can see your thoughts, yeah i can see your thoughts

i miss my old life with you
i miss my old shade of blue
it was dark and light, like the sky at night
when the moon is shining bright

you can lie, lie, lie to me all that you want
you can look me in the eye
you can la de dai to me in the dark
but i can see your thoughts, yeah i can see your thoughts

i’m looking out, the window cause, i’m waiting for, it to let up

 

2. the lonely cricket

there’s a lonely, cricket, in my backyard,
he is looking, for a lover, underneath the stars
he’s been there for a while, he’s been standing in line

oh, lonely cricket in the backyard
i think he’s living, by the fishes, underneath that old birch tree
and if he comes back here tomorrow, i think i’ll call him jiminy
he reminds me that i’m good, i do everything i should

oh lonely, oh lonely
pick a spot, sing a song, i will find you, i will bring you home
he’s been there for a while, he’s been standing in line
he reminds me that i’m good, i do almost everything i should

oh lonely, oh lonely, oh lonely, oh lonely
pick a spot, wait for me, sing a song, i’m coming,
yeah i will find you, i will bring you home

3. grey skies

grey skies are blowing in, it’s getting colder again
blanket frost on riverbed, gets it dark in my head

grey skies are blowing in, the air is hard and it’s thin,
creeping up over my skin, can’t stop my eyes from burning

i’m sleepless, again

grey skies are blowing in, my solar power’s fading
insides filled with chilled cement, can’t seem to say what i meant

grey skies are blowing in, and here we are complaining
in our warm and cozy beds, about goose bumps in the morning

i’m sleepless, again

4. election day

i set out on election day, i voted for elizabeth may
and i warned everyone they should stay on my page
but they all sat at home and just waited for change

i would have been happy on election day,
if i’d have been from the united states
oh, cause back in the parliament buildings this time
they’re taking your money, and giving you mine

so i threw up my hands and i shut off the news,
and i moved way up north and became a recluse
and i grew my own food and i shot my own meat
and i never missed all the shit i used to eat

i was free

i set out on election day, i voted for the one with the brains
and i asked all the people to join me in line
they said, “nothing will change girl, you’re wasting your time”


5. feeling crazy

will you help me to let go, if i say i will,
i don’t know if i can go, another day still
holding on, holding on

lift me up where the angels sing and say a little prayer for me,
tell me not to worry anymore about these things
letting go, it’s hard, letting go
well i heard of this before, now it’s me here on the floor,
feeling crazy, feeling crazy

standing on that mountain edge, i saw the water there
i took a leap of faith into a hundred miles of air
and i, was fine, yeah i, i was alright

cause i heard of this before, now it’s me here on the floor
feeling crazy, feeling crazy


6. i got you

you can be mine if you wanna be, you can be high as you wanna be
and if you like i might set you free, you’ll see

i see your shadow up on the wall, in the blue light you stand ten feet tall
you’ll wake me up when the morning calls, to a new life and

i watch the people, going by
the harder they run, the faster time flies
and the thing that they can’t seem to change
they’re still sad at the end of the day,
but i got you

i can be yours if you want me to,
build you a house, paint it white and blue
take your last name when i marry you, take you

we’ll hit the road again the next day,
maybe this time we can ride the plain
either way baby it’s all the same, home is where you are

i watch the people, going by
the harder they run the faster time flies
and the thing that they can’t seem to change
they’re still sad at the end of the day,
but i got you


7. today i lost my mind

today i lost my mind and i’m afraid i cannot find it,
oh today i lost my mind and now my baby’s gone again

today i lost my head, a guitar pick and my patience
some lyrics and a working pen, when my baby was gone

lately i just wanna take you to a show
lately i just wanna call you on the phone

today i lost my sense and now you know things i can’t stand
but baby when i lost my sense, i wasn’t mad at you

lately i just wanna take you to a show
lately i just wanna call you on the phone


8. sad sad song

pickin’ up the pieces put ‘em back together
clever as we were we never really figured out
that everything we ever said and everything we ever did
is gonna find us somehow

in a sad sad place, in a sad sad state
in this tiny space, out there

it’s always been a bumpy ride sometimes
i even find it’s hard to wanna open up my eyes

the more i see the more i get mad,
the more i feel the more i wanna get back inside

in a sad sad place, in a sad sad state,
in this tiny place, out there

pick it up put it in your pocket zip it up and lock it
don’t tell your closest friends

take it home try to figure out what’s wrong
put it in a song it makes sense

in a sad sad place, in a sad sad state, in this tiny space
in a sad sad place, in a sad sad state, in this tiny space

9. earthquake

sitting in my blue room, i was thinking of you
thought you could use a blue room too
maybe a front step to gather your thoughts at,
sort em’ out one by one

you’re out of time, don’t you see everything is not fine
you’ve got no love left to give
don’t you worry about your kids
i’ve heard it all before

you picked your ground, you stand proudly on it,
this time will be different
when the ground breaks open, you pour yourself out in,
such a way you make it fit

you’re out of line, don’t you think you should change your mind
for all the time that you spent, feeling spread out thin and hell bent
on the same things as before

do, do, do

you’re out of time, don’t you see everything is not fine
you’ve got no love left to give, don’t you worry about your kids
i said you’re out of line, don’t you think you should change your mind
for all the time that you spent, feeling spread out thin and hell bent
on the same things as before

do, do, do

sitting in my blue room, i was thinking of you
thought you could use a blue room too

10. tough love

you’ve been sittin’ here, for nearly forty years
turning whiskey into tears, turning whiskey into tears
i know that you’re hard like that, that’s why I got your back,
but if you wanna just relax, i’ll be in the back yard

there is, so much, i need to remind you of
i guess, it takes, a lotta tough love
i do declare that i’m done
till you decide to bring me home

you’re pullin’ everything out by the roots, you’re taking your turn i guess
but you try to be thoughtful, cause thoughtful is best, but these days
you can’t find your way out, i know you’re on to something but right now
i think that you might just need to be,

someone else, something more, not like you, something more

cause there is, so much, i need to remind you of
and i guess, it takes, a lotta tough love
i do declare that i’m done
till you decide to bring me home

11. end of the line

all the king’s horses, and all of his men,
couldn’t put me back together again
but i’m kind of elated, that i’ve become a little jaded,
because i’ve won, it is what i made it anyway

at the end of the line, you’ve been waiting there for quite sometime
while i was outside, smoking cigarettes and drinking wine,
you were on my mind

i was out on a wire, i felt numb, i thought i could fly
and so i jumped, and to my surprise i hit the ground
but when i woke up, i saw your face, you were still looking up
but that’s ok cause you won’t get enough of what you found

at the end of the line, you’ve been waiting there for quite sometime
while i, was outside, smoking cigarettes and getting high
you were on my mind

don’t be late, oh, don’t be late, i’m already here
don’t be late, oh, don’t be late, i’m already here
i’m already here

at the end of the line, you’ve been waiting there for quite sometime
while i was outside, smoking cigarettes and drinking wine,
at the end of the line
by the fire, smoking cigarettes and drinking wine
you were on my mind, you were on my mind


12. for the night

what would you think if i stayed out in the backyard
what would you do if i wanted to stay there all night with you
oh darlin’, what would you say if i told you we were in space
and that the stars, they were all ours, for the night

for the night